I've learned many things in my life. Some, I will admit, I learned a bit quicker than others. Some I've learned quite easily. Some, I just cant seam to grasp. And then there are those "Life Lessons" that you learn that 1. you don't ever wish to repeat and 2. how ever horrible, you are grateful for the lesson.
I have had that lesson, yet AGAIN!!!
I have learned, among other things, that sometimes the things you think you are trying to get away from are the things that you adore the most. The things that make you who you are. The treasures that you hold near and dear. That being true to yourself is in fact the greatest gift you can give anyone, be it they like it or not. Loving who you are and what you stand for is worth fighting for, and it will conquer all in the end. I have found ME in this process, and I am sad to say for a while I was lost. I would normally say I am a strong willed person who knows who I am and would never be one who is easily lead away or "lost", but this time, not the case. I was taken to a place where I just didn't belong. Where my values were tested, my faith was tried, and my family was put last. It was not a place where I would choose to normally be or exist. I found that I couldn't be myself. I wasn't happy. I needed to be me. And "ME", I came to realize, was "MOM", I love being a MOM, and all that that entails. I LOVE cleaning, doing dishes, laundry, driving my boys to school and picking them up. I LOVE!!! making them cookies after school, and talking to them during the day. I love hearing their friends call me, "O-ee's Mom" and "Hey, there's Ian's Mom", I realized I love that I have lost my name to gain theirs! What an honor!!!
I do not have a college degree. My experience in the working field has proven to be one that I choose to not repeat. So some may ask, "What does she do?" and my response to them will be with a overflowing hart, "I'm A MOM!"
If my Boys can come home and tell me that they have had a rotten day and I can be there for them then I have done well. If they can come home to tell me they got 100% on their spelling test then I'm doing my job. If I get 4 missionaries out and they Return with Honor then I have succeeded!
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To one of the best and most beautiful, major-league moms I know: Glad you found yourself again. Motherhood is truly the hardest and best 3 full-time jobs a woman can have.
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